An old man sits in his leather armchair, wrapped in a dark coat that only half keeps the chill out of his bones. His gaze rests on a fishbowl precariously perched on a wooden stool, the water still, disturbed only occasionally by the slowness of a goldfish moving, as if he, too, knows everything here has slowed down. Beside the man stands a lamp, unnaturally positioned on the snowy lawn, its light dim, almost rebellious against the omnipresent whiteness of winter. The world around him is blanketed in snow—soft, still, compelling. Trees stand like white-stained statues, their branches heavy with the frozen past. In the distance, a power pole stands out against the gray sky—a metallic reminder of movement, of connection, of something beyond this stage. The entire scene feels like a painting accidentally dropped from its frame and landed on the wrong canvas. Here, inside has become outside. Comfort is in conflict with nature. The leather chair doesn't belong in the snow, nor does the fishbowl. The animal in the glass lives in its own closed-off world, trapped in a sphere that is absurd in itself, but here—on a stool in a frozen meadow—it becomes almost grotesque. Yet the old man looks. He looks as if the act of looking itself means something. As if, in the floating of that little fish, there lies an answer that can no longer be found anywhere else. But it doesn't.
Square.
…and so she moves through rooms that always seem square, even when the walls buckle under social expectations and the floor wobbles with implicit intentions; she, whose way of seeing was never meant to be a rejection but a precision, a kind of moral obligation to clarity, for how can one orient oneself when everything is constantly moving except the gravity of logic? She does not wait for a feeling, she waits for a pattern, a confirmation, a repetition, something that makes sense, like a series of footsteps that echo at precise intervals on a smooth floor — there lies safety, and therefore truth, and therefore reality. The others, always on the move, speak in language that oscillates between meaning and gesture, as if their words were more sound than structure, and while they laugh at the wrong moment and their eyes slide along invisible points of meaning, she tries to understand by writing things down, drawing them, making diagrams in which their capriciousness can be captured in forms that at least adhere to their own logic. And so the square is created — a mental space, not really hard or cold, but not fluid either — with rounded corners that allow what is flexible to be captured, if only for a moment, for observation, for processing, for an attempt at contact that relies not on feeling but on decoding.
